Kylie, I love this first stanza! Its straight in, clear and strong. And the freight train visual. Yup, you nailed it with the title!
Until depression freight trains
against every vulnerable part of you
you cannot know
darkness so bright
it hurts your closed eyes
your closed fist
your closed heart.
getting out of bed
is the most profound act of courage
you can make
and you make it look easy
You paint yourself in shades of monstrous